Why Did She Go
[Ballerina],
I’d just like to know what happened. I thought I would have heard from you Tuesday night. But didn’t.
Things were going so well. And then, boom! You changed, drastically, going from someone who wanted to be touched all the time to someone who wished that I wasn’t around. I’ve tried calling you but there was no answer. You spent lots of time in the beginning telling me how special I was, how you enjoyed the “connection” we had, how we seemed to agree on so many things. Yet now, you don’t talk at all. Were your words before just hot air?
I believe your whole attitude changed on Sunday afternoon, apparently when we were talking about the fatness / thinness issue. If I said something you didn’t like, please give me a chance to clarify. My views on weight tend to be controversial. But people usually agree with them if they really comprehend. It’s possible that you misunderstood me. From our earlier conversations, I thought you agreed.
Or, if not the weight discussion, were you upset that I have no immediate desires to move to Europe? Again, that’s a topic that could be discussed further. Nothing is set in stone. Until Sunday, you seemed so into me, then, so out of me. Please tell me what happened. Wouldn’t you agree that you owe me at least that much?
Were you embarrassed about your life style or your apartment? I liked your place and your interest in lots of movies, and was happy you shared all that. It doesn’t matter what place we’re in, as long as we’re together.
Perhaps whatever it was that seems to have offended you, was due to our language or cultural differences. If I made a mistake, let me know. Even if I can’t repair it with you, the information would help me in future relationships.
I thought until this weekend that you were an open communicator. But you haven’t fully explained your reasons for treating me so coldly on Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday. Please communicate with me just one more time. That’s all I ask. Just tell me why you got so distant. Don’t leave me hanging like this.
If you don’t respond, then I suppose I’ll have to just accept the fact that I’ll never understand why someone who seemed to care for me so much, suddenly couldn’t care less. I hope you’ll be humane at least, and help me achieve closure by telling me what went wrong. I won’t judge you. I just want to know. That’s all.
I won’t write again if I don’t hear from you. While our time together so far was short, I’m sincerely glad that you stopped by for a spell. Thanks for everything.
