Is The Prize Worth The Pain
If I ever met this dream lady I’m seeking, would I be capable of enjoying her as much as I expect to? I think I would. I hope so anyhow. Or, would my being afraid of rejection prevent it? Indeed, there would be some issues to fix first.
Could I get truly excited about a new relationship since historically, early thrill has only lead to early and painful disappointment?
I’ve acquired much baggage on my quest through thousands of rejections. I’ve developed a strong fear of rejection in fact. Given that, I might not be able to let myself enjoy her, fearing that yet another rejection is about to fall on me. I open my heart, and want to be with beautiful women (like I did with the ballerina). She really was beautiful too. But then, BOOM! They leave, and I’m left even more afraid of rejection than before.
So many lovely women ignore me that, if one would show interest, could I even trust her attention to be genuine, and not short-lived like the rest? Can I actually get what I want, and enjoy it too?
Would she desire me enough not to cheat?
Could I gracefully handle rejection I receive in honorable ways? I certainly do not want to embarrass myself by acting childishly or spoiled about it.
These are tough question I can’t answer right now. But I’ll ponder them further and share my thoughts as they occur. Talk to you soon.
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