2006-08 Month In Review
Nothing new to report for August, 2006. No advancements have been made in the love quest this month. However, I am far less lonely these days since [Emmy] and I talk and visit so much. Our friendship / relationship fills a large void for the both of us. In most every way that counts, [Emmy] is making me whole where I was but a small part before. It’s wonderful to have such a caring and loving lady friend. Though [Emmy] is not my dream girl, I am still far happier with her around than I was, alone, in the decades prior.
The same concerns exist now as did last month. I hope to find a way to give up my dream girl notions, and to fully embrace [Emmy] as the best lover I’ve ever had, and ever could have. I want to know that our love is truly as good as it gets. I don’t feel this yet. But I’m eager to. Fully accepting [Emmy] as my dream girl could mean no more waiting around and wondering; no more sad nights; no more finding more happiness in my dreams than in reality; no more believing that I’d be better off with someone else; no more greener grass on the other side. I sincerely desire to shed these misgivings; though I haven’t the foggiest idea of how.
The search for answers continues…
