Therapy Session
I want good sex but don’t have it.
Is getting it worth the fight anymore? I know how short-lived it usually is after all.
The fantasy is so much better than the reality. But it’s hard to give up this dream and accept that I’ll just never duplicate for real, what I’ve enjoyed in my fantasies. So how does one happily resign himself? How does one make peace with the idea that a major, life-long dream just isn’t going to come true? Maybe I should just cut my losses and learn to be happy with what I’ve got.
Online dating profile has been updated per therapist’s instructions a few weeks ago. Still, no positive responses.
Perhaps building a harem is unrealistic. That is to say, creating and maintaining a list of at least several women to play with may be impossible for me, given my near-zero success rate on online and other dating services. Plus, doing this would hurt [Emmy].
It’s difficult to believe that anything I do anymore is going to get me the lasting good eroticism I’m seeking. I’ve tried so many things without success that I’m starting to sense that this dream might be unreachable. Can I live happily in an environment where good sex is likely to happen only a few times in a ten year period?
Therapist book recommendation: The 5 Love Languages by Gary Chapman.
Also, investigate Sensate Focus exercises. They may trigger some eroticism with [Emmy] if we do them together.
